Creepiness and Grace

September 14th, 2008

Something I haven’t said in at least 6 weeks…”This is so bad it’s gone past good and back to bad again.”

Whenever I think about back to when I lived in NYC at the time I didn’t realize how crazy it was. Now when I look at it as a picture I say, those were some strange times.

Sometimes when you write it feels like it’s not going to happen, like you’re scraping the bottom of the bottle even if you have a complete and total idea of where you want everything to go. And the new book does get complex. I was thinking about that today in the grocery store like, I love it but how did it all of a sudden get so twisty? And I was actually impressed that I was keeping some of it in my head and not messing it up. I think people will like it. I feel more in control of it than I did with my first book. That one felt like it was writing me instead of vice versa. So it works on a lot of different levels. Agents tell me people don’t want that kind of thing anymore. I just choose to ignore them. You can always tell I’m having a good time in my writing whether the story is a valentine or a poison arrow, it’s always fun, crazy, and saying something in a multiple rubiks cube kind of way. Creepiness and grace. And I have to just keep redefining to myself with every story or book, exactly how much of each I want to use to make something new and different.

I’m a weirdly nostalgic person- I find it hard to only look forward; I always look back. The guy who inspired a character in my first book said I had a tendency to live in the past but anyone who read that book knows he wasn’t exactly a Rhodes scholar when it came to social sciences so who cares what he thought even if he had a point. It’s a little like clinging onto a wonderful raft- you start on a big ship and end up clinging to this wonderful raft and frankly, I like the raft.

Nothing beats Kansas. It’s where I’ve always wanted to be- that land of wide open spaces. It seems like I always want to go to places that most people can’t wait to leave. I just want to get lost in Kansas where there’s fields left and right and teeny roads. It’s so exciting- you have no idea what could come out or what could happen or what characters are brewing around and there’s just so much old-school America out there. Even when nothing much is happening I’m just ecstatic.

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Technicolor Splash

September 14th, 2008

I decided today that I’m never as happy as I am when I’m writing. From time to time I feel that way and then other things sort of creep up but I realized that even when I’m doing other things, I’m still sort of writing at the same time. Ideas keep going through my head about whatever I’m working on or several things and I’m thinking of names or plot points or colors so I guess I’m sort of always writing so it still ranks up there as my favorite thing to do. And what I love to do to make money and feel fulfilled. No matter what else is going on, I somehow always and only want to do just that. So yesterday I worked for hours on the new book and edited the hell out of it and it’s in such better shape now. I couldn’t get into the violent parts at the end because I wasn’t feeling it, couldn’t quite get it into my head in terms of how I wanted it to go and what exactly I wanted to happen in the altercation so I’m taking a time out on that until I watch ‘Halloween’ again, both the Carpenter and Zombie versions…whenever I get stuck and need some help with creepy ambiance, that’s the movie to beat….So I’m definitely continuing to brew up a devastating concoction of strangeness and surreality and hoping to make a technicolor splash with the ending of this story…

I have to remind myself to listen to Be Your Own Pet, The Virgins, Switches, She Wants Revenge, Par Avion, Ipso Facto, etc….they sound like types of bands that I’d find inspiring when I need a dose of it, esp BYOP. The lead female singer has a Friday the 13th tattoo!!!

I recently re-watched ‘Ghost World’ and forgot how much I liked the phrase “Some people are ok, mostly I just feel like poisoning everybody.”

I had a meeting today and felt like garbage since yesterday morning and just wanted to wear the loosest sweats that said whatever I felt like ‘Time Out’ or something but I groaned to myself that until I’m someone more known, I should make an effort to look nice when meeting with people that are choosing me to be in their movie (even if I can compromise by finding something a little loose and comfortable to wear). It’s funny how when I feel perfect I can spout off pieces of girly wisdom about how its a good idea to inject a dose of old Hollywood glamour into your look and activities but when it’s really necessary I just want to lie around and barely get dressed and groan and can’t even remember my name let alone how to look and feel fantastic. So today I tried to get my nonsense together and put on something nice but easy to move in and earrings and some mascara and bustered down there and felt better. Well maybe not really but I felt like I looked and felt better to other people so that kind of gave me a boost. So, glamour. I love it. And love it best when I can use it to actually boost my mood instead of telling other women to constantly be glamorous when they least want to. So I guess I stepped up instead of writing about stepping up. Whatever. You can see I barely feel any better now regardless of the damn mascara.

Emptying The Bucket 1#

September 3rd, 2008

Some people say that when they have dark times personally they have dark times creatively but that’s not really the case with me. And I’m beginning to hate the word, ‘dark,’ its starting to get really cheesy. I write pieces intrepreted as dark no matter what is going on in my life. It’s a way to grip the plot and the happenings down to plant them so that it doesn’t turn into a comedy show which my work has also a liking toward. I take incidents or feelings from my life but not really darkness my mind creates- it just takes bits and pieces from things I’ve seen or read and turns it into something else.

The first book and the 2nd have a few similar themes: friendship, creativity, love, but they’re two totally different things really- they feel like completely different journeys which I suppose they are really but I’m laughing to myself right now thinking of when people ask if I’ve grown as a person or writer since the first book. I know I have as a girl for sure but I can’t tell if anything has matured at all! I’m probably a kid and wacky in the same old ways and the writing, the shaping is is probably similar as well. I don’t know though- I’m sure I’m a bad judge- maybe there are signs of growth and and development change, maybe it can’t be helped. I read so damn much that I’m sure different influences have shaped the stories. I read alot of Cormac McCarthy while writing it and strange as it sounds, that’s an influence I can see in the dialogue structure and descriptions. There’s only so different the two books of mine can be, both having a 1st person structure but its alright, as long as they’re recognizable to me and to the people who read what I write.

When you look around at other people who are struggling it makes you fit in and feel better and develop worthwhile ideas and the best idea I got from that was how much more proud I was of my material than other people I encounter are of their material and that surprises me. Alot of what I’ve achieved has been because I believed in what I wrote and that people would enjoy it. Just write it and get it how you want it and then go out and talk about it and be proud of it, get people excited about your hard work. If you believe in it, your enthusiasm will be contagious.

Marie Antoinette is a girl I love. A girl with flair who couldn’t grow up as much as she tried, a hilarious colorful kid in a grownup body that couldn’t seem to please anyone but herself.

more meandering

September 2nd, 2008

The condition of Asperger’s syndrome is really fascinating to me. I wouldn’t ever want to have it myself but I think I want to write about it, using it for a character. It’s a mild form of autism, a mind blindness, a condition that hinders the brain’s ability to process the facial expressions and nuances that communicate human intent. Total misaffect and makes things impossible to read. I think it would be really fascinating- imagine how hard that would make life to navigate through and how alienated you’d feel from others and what a false front a person may even affect- they may seem odd or crazy or manipulative or cold or even robotic. I want to use it- I just have to think of a way to use it that makes sense and fits a plot organically but I like a challenge so maybe it’ll work out.

I’m sometimes inspired by a scrap of vintage fabric or a hunk of metal.

I see writing as a collaboration between me and a group of ideas that present themselves.

I’m all for the DIY movement in film, music, writing- that’s how real creativity can come out and have an audience and awesome talents can be shown. No matter what I’m doing creatively: writing, acting, editing, I have really exacting standards for how I go about doing it even if the end result seems carefree and fun.

I love when people say the biggest battles are with the mind because I sometimes imagine that if there’s a gun pointed at your head, you’d laugh at your various mind battles over the years and THEN tell me how important those battles were…:>

I try to take any decent opportunties I get, not turning things down even if they’re scary. I memorize and rehearse, take things seriously, put a lot of time aside to work, write whenever I can. I just can’t imagine making a conscious decision to do something other people are already doing and creating but lots of people do just that- I hate wearing what other people are wearing let alone doing what they do. But in the same vein, the scariest things about what I’m doing out here is that I’m purposefully following no one’s blueprint and just pushing forward, picking up hints and learning as I go along.

I definitely don’t have a reputation as an unstoppable party monster. I’m just sort of a complicated and colorful in day to day life but when it comes to nightlife it has to be somewhere I really want to go or with people I really want to see. Basically, costume parties are a no-brainer for me. Anytime I have an excuse to dress up in costume and hang around with people, that’s just my favorite time of all- then I get crazy excited.

I’m a huge geek but not a dork or a nerd. A geek just means you have interests and obsessions that you love to think and talk about constantly and if you’re lucky, get to base your career on in some way.

On writing and more things…

September 2nd, 2008

I can only write stories that are fun, necessary, and important to me and every moment has to count. In my real life, I sometimes feel I’ve wasted some precious time and I have no desire to let that happen in my work, no unecessary plots, characters, or lines. I can’t waste any time writing something I don’t believe in and there’s an audience for my work out there, they write to me and come to the signings, so I really don’t give a shit about making converts or getting new people by doing something against what I would organically write or do. that’s not how to get readers- I hate the idea of courting people, kissing people’s asses by changing what you don’t want to change. Do what you do, write what you like to write, let your natural enthusiasm for your project come through. When you love what you’re doing, that sort of fire lights other people up as well. I’ve never been good about faking anything or changing what I don’t want to change. Just be who you are and be grateful for the audience you have.

I was recently told to try for new drinks whiskey and ginger ale and brandy and coke. It’ll take me forever to remember to try them though because I barely drink and then when it’s time to choose one when I’m out I always go blank and just order a vodka grapefruit again.

Someone asked me the other day about how I felt about my label and made some comment about her label which was huge, and morewell-known than mine. I love my label because there aren’t as many people involved and the more people that are involved the less that actually gets done, so I needed another model of how to accomplish what I wanted and I needed a small, less-hands on group and that’s exactly what I got. You don’t need a lot of hullabuloo anymore- just a good story and a creative mind and enthusiastic people surrounding it.

I think people who stress about aging have more anxiety and inner turmoil than anyone. Sure, simple vanity makes us not want to age but I’ll take being wiser and more accomplished over what I’ve been any day.

—I really want the new Kills album- Midnight Boom!——–

People really underestimate how hard it is to write an entertaining story- one that has dignity and balls and substance and fun and an uncompromising vision that someone can relate to, enjoy, and/or get behind.

I’ve been going through an early 90s period- Stone Roses, My Bloody Valentine, Jesus and Mary Chain, as well as some new stuff like Dirty Harry, the Ting Tings, Gossip, The Donnas. And of course I always bring up Sofia Coppola because she’s one of the last creative visionaries working in film today- she understands how important music (and I don’t mean Top 40 hits) is to film and how cool it is to take old songs that mean something to you and put them in a film, a new context that will bring a film alive and make new memories for other people.

As much as of course all writers would love to have a huge fanfare to announce each of their books and I’m definitely no exception (it would make touring and publicity so much easier and its fun for lots of people to know who you are and what you do, I can admit that) it’s also great still to be under the radar- so much less baggage- I can write what I want and be really anarchic about what I like and the work can be anything I want it to be within a certain set of parameters and focus and no matter how hard I work only a small group of readrers will discover it or already know about it anyways. Unless it really gets discovered and then I support it will be a whole new game that I’ll probably play the same way anyways.

On Writing and some other things

September 2nd, 2008

Everything I write has to be my own idea or at least let in by my own muse. It all comes from my gut and then my brain because my brain is too good-girl and competitive but less than it used to be. Still, I need my gut to write alongside of my brain.

I hope that readers and I share in common love of work that speaks to emotions or concepts they’re familiar with or want to experience or can apprecitate if they like to think or imagine.

Just keep writing rules, breaking them, and writing them again.

I just wanted to do something that I would be proud of and that my friends would enjoy as well as people with the same reading sensibilities and imaginations.

In acting class they don’t want us to think and are always surprised that I can interpret text. I understand their point, they want reactivity, but I still like having my mind active while I’m doing the ‘what are they doing, what do I feel about it’ exercises. It’s a challenge for me because as a writer I need to think, dissect, analyze, make good decisions, and as an actor I have to pretty much just react- it’s a weird balance, definitely a challenge and one I have to always keep working on to get right.

Iron sharpens iron. Whenever you’re coming up in an entertainment aspect, it’s all pretty simple I think- work hard, try to do the best work you can and be a nice person, as country as that sounds. It’s good business, good practice, good karma, and in my opinion, just a good way to be.

It’s not news that I love Sofia Coppola but I recently saw her short film “Lick the Star” and not only did my affection for her increase but she inspired me to want to do something that I swore I didn’t have it in me to do but it made me want to make short films. I need to figure out the details to get that moving- the cameras and how to score it and how you get the credits in at the end. Also- how great is it that she uses bands like Free Kitten, the Amps, the Land of the Loops, who half the people making movies now probably have never heard of and they’re so perfect for the atmospheric soundtrack of a scene

My Pamela Anderson Sundays

August 10th, 2008

I simply cannot get enough of Pamela Anderson’s show on E. For people who know me, I know that sounds ridiculous because I’ve always hated reality shows but there’s so much charm to this one and I don’t know if people would find this strange but I relate alot to her. She’s bubbly yet well-read, loves to be independent but yet people like to help her. Loves animals and having sons more than daughters (I’ve had a dream to have identical twin boys since I was ten.) And I love her clothes, eye makeup and crazy clothes. I might not be able to look like that in my daily life of running to Albertsons to grab bagels and cans of beets or riding my bike sweating so much that I look like I just dripped myself in oil but when I do dress up or get it together, or have a choice to pick out things for Halloween- I crave the same dresses and insane high heels. I don’t know how I feel about the comparison to Marilyn Monroe- in ways it fits but in others it seems off and I need to find a vintage icon to compare her too but I’m not sure there is one- she’s sort of her own creation that I don’t think has really come before. Since being in LA and working hard and getting thrown in many directions I really like sitting and watching her and listening to her earthy Betty Boop voice. I feel like things are ok and that with some plugging away I’ll find my niche and get noticed for what I do well. My mother would probably flip out thinking that I love watching Pamela Anderson or relate to her in any major way but for some reason- she puts me at ease and makes me feel confident in my odd mix of brainy bombshell (a term coined by my friend Tara Hayden.) What I like about the show is that it doesn’t feel scripted- it’s a documentary with a 60s kitsch ambiance, certain scenes could have been lifted from a Quentin Tarantino movie. Grainy camera shots. Girl in bikini against car. Surfboards. There’s no fake fights or unecessary drama- I love when Pam’s family comes on and gives her looks when she brings up Tommy and her brother helping her sign merchandise or running late for a plane. Anything that makes me feel glamorous doing the smallest little things or lets the thought grow in my head that if you have talent and a lot of unique characteristics, you can get noticed and allowed to do the thing that you love, whether its have huge implants and be a PETA spokesperson or any of the numerous things I try and am hard on myself to do on a daily basis. :>

What I Want For My Birthday

June 3rd, 2008

Argh….what don’t I want? The list starts here:

Itunes gift cards….completely obsessed with the I thing….

Cyndi Lauper’s new cd- ‘Bring Ya To The Brink’….want this bad…its amazing

Nine Inch Nails- ‘Year Zero’ or ‘Ghosts’, one of the 2

that book I saw in Anthropologie…’this is new york’ sort of ridiculous now that im in LA but hey- the heart grows fonder…

a professional thai massage or even just reflexology, a good hand or foot massage

magazines- a subscription to Nylon or some wedding magazines..im obsessed with party details…

a new t-shirt from threadless.com

a big package of Bic black pens…that and some looseleaf paper..those two things get me so inspired to write…

something really Japanese Kawaii and cute

great weather for the party….

Still Not Over ‘Lost In Translation’

June 1st, 2008

I keep a movie on my laptop every night as I fall asleep- it’s the only thing that lulls me to sleep quickly but it has to be a movie I’ve seen a few times or else I’ll want to stay up watching it, which negates the point. I watched episodes of ‘Wonderfalls’ for a while, then ‘LOST’ (not the best choice because I always want to watch it so I would put it on commentary) and then ‘Alice in Wonderland’ and ‘Elizabethtown’ and then I got really jonesing to see ‘Lost In Translation’, one of my top favorites. Yesterday I finally saw the whole thing through again and that damn movie and ending gets me everytime- I LOVE IT. It’s just got the best atmosphere and ambiance and feeling and humor and poignancy and melancholy and although I never was really into seeing Asia, the movie makes me want to go to Tokyo every time I see it. I love Bill Murray in it and Scarlett Johansson too although I was never as into her again as I was with her in this- they just make such a perfect pair. And the end just kills me both in a happy and sad way- there’s someone on YouTube that digitally processed what he said to her at the end and its “I have to be leaving but I won’t let that come between us, ok?” I LOVE IT. It doesn’t mean that they’re committing adultery (and maybe they’d get divorced and be with each other b/c the movie definitely shows that neither of their marriages are with the right person) but their cool friendship isn’t going to be broken….and I love listening to interviews with Sofia Coppola- she just has the most calming voice and we love the same kind of music and movies and design and she’s defintely someone I’d like to work with- maybe I’ll be able to someday! When you’re done watching LIT you just feel you know a lot about her as well as the characters in the movie. And if anyone know where to find those cherry blossom ceiling and wall hangers that Scarlett put up in her hotel room in the movie, PLEASE let me know as I’d love to get some for my house.

Other things going on-

I actually had two really fun days in the past week or so, more fun than I’ve had since getting here and actually felt connected in some way to people or a place or even myself since I’ve felt really disconnected since being here. Last weekend Danica (who I met at a food party, random enough) went with me to my friend James’ workshop at LA826 where we worked with kids to write down their dreams and then we acted them out. After that we went shopping for desserts (and through Culver City which I hadn’t seen before and I got to check out the simply massive Sony Studios) and groceries and drove to El Segundo to her friend Marjorie’s bungalow (really cool and art deco) and we made food- artichoke dip with crackers infused with herbs and stuff mushrooms and huge gourmet type sandwiches and made cosmopolitans and lemon drops and watched episodes of ‘Sex and The City’ because of the movie coming out. Sort of ironically I was reading all of Marjorie’s wedding magazines which is an interesting juxtaposition to the show but that’s not because I’m getting married, that’s just because I love party and wedding and design details and she let me tear out whatever I liked. It was just a great night- meeting a new friend and connecting with the two of them. Since living here I’m realizing that you can do as many ‘fun activities’ or ‘parties’ or ‘hanging out’ as you want but if it’s not with people you really connect to, there’s no point at all and it can just make you feel more isolated and lonely than if you were sitting watching a movie by yourself. SoI felt lucky to hang out with those two.

Last night my friend Missy invited me to Russell’s b-day party who is a fantastic LA photographer. I took a lot of photos of his yard for ideas for my own themed b day party when I get back home in two weeks because I have to start working on that. The Mexican food was great, the margueritas were as well although I’m not a big drinkers, and the cake which was shaped like a camera was utterly fantastic. I really liked the ambiance and the decor and how the seating was spread out all over the backyard and it had little nooks and a really cool Narnia-type door near his photo studio!

So I’m glad I’ve had some fun before going home- I fly out in 12 days! I’m so excited to get back to Buffalo. Even when I have a good time here I still feel sort of alone and strange and disconnected and I hope that goes away because it’s hard to feel that way all the time- it’s just so lonely and makes me feel like I’m drowning. So I work on the new book a lot and my other writing projects and network (some good news coming up with that) and hope to be working in creative fields and that should make me feel more connected, but I’ll always love going home.

My answers to questions written to me about book marketing Part 1, God this took a lot of time to write out..I should just write a book about THIS

May 31st, 2008

There’s nothing I enjoy more (besides writing and acting) than helping other artists- we’re all in this together and everyone has aspects of the career, no matter how successful they become, that they’d like to get better at or feel more comfortable doing. I absolutely love the marketing of art and creativity- finding the answers to the question of ‘How can we entice people to give this piece of art a chance, how can we grab their curiosity and make it relevant and interesting to them while both keeping some mystery and showing them what its sort of about?” The writing of my books and works is fantastically fun and makes me REALLY happy but the selling of it is important too because I don’t think of it in a corporate sense- I just think ‘how can i share this with the world?’ I find marketing to be one of the most CREATIVE aspects of the entire process. It seems like my energy and enthusiasm for this part of the work has gotten around to other writers and I find that I get a lot of questions sent to my website www.alyciaripley.com or my MySpace page that deal with this issue and wonder if I have any advice specifically since ‘Traveling With An Eggplant’ has been out for two years and I have been touring for it and marketing it as well as getting ready for the new story collection and book of essays, etc. I always like to help because I know what it’s like to feel stuck or need a hand or just not know how to approach something. So I took some questions from one author who recently emailed me and what my answers were to her and copy and pasted them on my sites so that other authors who might have the same questions or areas of concern can see them and perhaps find answers that might work for them as well. I love to help people market their work and get more readers or audiences for it and am good at finding what I call ‘the slant’ for their particular piece of art which in turn can gain audiences, sales, press, promotion, and word of mouth. I should write a book on that! Ok, here we go.

Question: “I started writing eight years ago. I’ve gotten one book out there, it’s in CT and MA Barnes and Noble stores, but I”m having trouble getting my next two books out there.”

Me: First of all- congrats!! Writing and getting published is hard work and takes so much tenacity and talent and courage- I can’t wait to read your book. What was more difficult about the later books than the 1st one? Usually the first one is the pain in the rear and the whole process is so new and has such a learning curve to it. Your book is in bookstores in two states- a very big deal! Don’t forget that! Do you have local papers you can contact about giving it to someone to review? What about local TV personalities who do lifestyle or special stories? Corporate and indie bookstores? The biggest hurdle is just CALLING AND ASKING THEM. After the first three calls it’s no longer scary! I didn’t have one person say no- people WANT lifestyle type stories or about people doing things in their community that is artistic. The more of these you build up (and DEFINITELY get a website to put them on: reviews, schedules of signings, etc) the easier it is to KEEP getting them. No one wants to be the LAST to jump on a new, promising author! It’s always great to find something about your book that relates to your hometown or a theme that relates to real life- mine was musical hallucinations, child abuse, music journalism, etc. These werent ALL portions of the book but it allowed me to tailor my ‘asking for publicity’ to several different venues. This is key and is something I’m naturally good at- I have a marketing mind, I LOVE marketing and wanted to get my book out there, so if you need help with this I’d be glad to help- I’ll read your books and figure out a good slant for several different venues and modes of selling- some ppl just love to do this and are marketers, some ppl aren’t, and thats why you have friends to help you. And thats why I have friends to help me with math…:>

Question: “I read your profile and you stated that you love to talk with your readers about what parts of your books affected their lives… I never know what to say about my books. I suppose I could remove myself from the books completely (they’re very personal to parts of my life) but I also have trouble admitting that it’s a good piece of work! I think it has to do more with the fact that I loved my first book, but I don’t particularly relate to it any longer- I’m more into my third book- which I can’t seem to sell!”

ME: I don’t think you should ever remove yourself from it, time passing does that enough on its own. I feel the same way about my first novel- although I still relate to it and remember the feelings from all the times that inspired it and the writing of it, it feels like a while ago and literally like a memory which is how I designed the cover with my illustator as well- so that the eggplant would be the only thing vibrant and really THERE. The rest would be the violet of a fading xerox from the 80s…..a fading memory. I find that the personal details and history intertwined with it makes you MORE entertaining and engaging when discussing the material. It all depends first on what your BASELINE personality is, thats what you have to look at first before assessing how you want to be in your readings and signings and speeches. Are you outgoing in general but shy about your work? More quiet in general? Does something specific make you feel intimidated ABOUT the talking about the book? Is it that you feel humble about its success or does the subject matter feel too personal to discuss? Everyone has a baseline and you just have to figure it out and then we can come up with a strategy for how to ameliorate it to more of your liking. It all depends on what sort of forum you are speaking at- readings are different than signings which are different from presentations. Readings are good b/c you can pick a really engaging section that would grab the interests of the ppl (specific group) you are speaking to and then ask for questions from the audience and that can get things started. Just remember how you would feel in an audience and what would make you like a speaker/author- ppl like to feel the person is engaging and funny and I dont mean in a comedian way, but just in a making ppl feel comfortable way. I always try and tailor it to who the group is- if I have a young group I relate to the relationship aspect and make fun of things or talk about the musicians in the book. I did a reading speech for senior citizens and they were a BLAST. They had great questions and they were so intrigued to hear a young author speak about herself. I love to take parts of the book and tailor it to the group in question. Speeches are cool too b/c you can pick whatever you like- pick parts of your life and book that are engaging for that particular audience- the fact that you are such a young author is already impressing and intriguing! Talk about what made you NEED to write that particular book at that time and why it is personal to you. EVERY age loves that.

Question:”So, I’d like to know what you do to make yourself able to speak freely and not be “shy” about how you feel about your writing.
I love that you’re so open with all of your accomplishments- that takes guts!”

Me: I mean, I do get nervous before speeches so ill be honest- I type out some notes and have them up there with me. I always go through it a few times which sounds funny b/c its all things about my life and book that I know intrinsically but when you’re in front of a huge group sometimes you can go blank or lose your place so the notes help you move from point to point in a good flow. I’m not a shy person and love to talk about the book b/c im EXCITED about it. I love the story and the real life inspiration and whenever you are excited about ANYTHING it makes your audience get engaged and excited too! My other point- people who go to readings, signings and speeches WANT to be there. They want to hear about the inner workings and creative processes of other ppl and what makes yours unique to you. You don’t have to get nervous that you’re not Jay Leno- that you can’t KEEP them lassoed there because you don’t have to! They want to be there! When im up there I find ppl are so attentive- they love hearing about the music that inspired certain scenes and how I play it over and over and over and what the themes are and esp they love hearing about the process of GETTING a book published b/c so many ppl love to write and dont understand what goes into the process of selling it so they love to hear about how I contacted agents, got fed up with them and went straight to the publishing houses. (No, i dont have an agent, i have a publicist but i do alot of the work too) and how I decided on the house im with. People love to hear stories of perserverance and dedication b/c lets face it- the process of writing and selling a novel takes TIME and to you and me, that comes easily but other people do not understand how we could dedicate all that time to FINISHING and selling a book! Remember- it doesn’t take guts to be open about your accomplishments- you HAVE to do this, you have to be your own publicist b/c no one else will do it for you. I only use one to keep getting into press because I’m really busy with writing and acting and modeling and editing and all the other creative endeavors I fight to get involved in because I’m crazy! I dont have time right now to constantly get myself out there so I have some help but mostly, I do it all on my own, every day, it always comes up in conversation and like I said earlier, people love hearing about authors and what they do so it’s an easy conversation because they have questions and find it interesting- most ppl dont know anyone who has written a book- its different and alien to what they know and they see it as a big deal b/c its out of the realm of what they do for a job. They love to ask questions and go to the website and the store to grab the book because if they meet you in person, they are intrigued to read the story!

Question: I also would love to know more about how you present yourself to your audiences. I get fidgety and don’t know what to say and I have to admit that I BLUSH over everything! It’s awful. I’ve never been one to be able to talk about myself openly- I’m more of a listener- but that obviously isn’t going to work in the artsy publishing world! So, I’m stuck!

ME: It’s normal to feel warm or nervous up there, there’s usually lights on you, etc. But just stay calm and remind yourself that these ppl WANT to be there and see YOU. I don’t know what it is but authordom carries these amazing sense of awesomeness to non-authors. I think it’s b/c they see us as being able to sustain dedication and creativity to something that can take YEARS- most ppl could never write a book and alot of them WANT to (I say these ppl often dont want to write, but they want to HAVE WRITTEN) or want to hear about ppl that DO and CAN. I think for you the BEST idea is to sit down way before you have a reading or a signing and write out things you’d like to say- there’s no penalty for bringing notes! It keeps everyone on track! When you feel at home and comfy, just think about what you wanted to SAY when you wrote your book and why you wrote it and what themes are important to you and how it relates to your life and what makes your book unique and special and write this all down on a sheet of paper and rehearse it in your head and really THINK about your book. It will become like 2nd nature but having the paper up there helps immensely- you can’t get nervous b/c you already have the ‘flow’ and can look down if you need to to see where you are going to go next. I present myself in the way that best fits the group: I spoke to a young, punky audience at Borders so I wore a hip t-shirt and talked about the music angle and the relationship in the book. When I spoke to the group of older women I dressed up and spoke about destiny and how life moves in a circle and about growing up and what we learn about what is important in life and about true friendship. It’s always good to tailor your slant to who you are talking about and this keeps you from getting nervous about having to ’sell it’ b/c you already have their attention!

Did you need an agent? (Nope, just me and a publicist. :>)

Question: How long did it take you to get book signings?

Me: I started contacting ppl immediately when I knew when the book would be out and got a lot of attention in Buffalo- they were psyched to have an author with an unusual book and pedigree and I just kept calling, setting things up, meeting more ppl in the writing scene who offered ideas and kept seeing what was up at Borders and B and N. DONT LISTEN TO NEGATIVITY- someone once told me I’d never get a reading and signing in Barnes and Noble b/c my book wasn’t on their stock list yet and they are so corporate. I didnt listen, went there, talked to someone and got it stocked and had the signing all within a month and they had even HEARD of the book before I went in!

I hope some of this helped- please feel free to ask me any questions you have- I’m glad to help. And like I said, let me know what the book is about and I can help you come up with various slants. that’s the key to the entire thing- I’m serious! And the more you talk about it, it stays personal but somehow gets less so and more rehearsed and the more rehearsed it is, the more freeing it is b/c you will start feeling comfortable to improvise funny anecdotes about the real life situations, etc. Let me know if I can help or consult with you in any way- good luck!